I am reminded...

I am reminded as the day approaches. The 4th of April that is. I can't believe it has almost be ONE year since I experienced such a low point in my life. For those who know me well, you know I am talking about Ms. Cindy and Mackie. For those who aren't familiar with this, they are two beautiful angels that went to spend eternity with Jesus last April.  It is still weird at times going back to church and them not being there, especially Ms. Cindy.  Time has dulled the pain to an extent. The broken pieces are still trying to be fixed. Life normally makes sense to me and I can accept it for what is handed to me, but I still haven't come to complete terms with all of this. Its hard to. I guess letting go of trying to make sense of it all is what I need to do. Because let's be honest, it will never make sense when a life (or lives) is cut short.

April 4th just happens to fall on Easter this year, so I have a mix of emotions. I want to celebrate and rejoice for Jesus, but a little bit of me wants to be sad because of Ms. Cindy and Mackie. I know she wouldn't want that, so I have been trying to stay focused on being positive.

Every so often I like to write a little poetry. I don't normally share my writing...like ever, so I am definitely stepping out of my comfort zone by sharing some of it.

As April 4th approaches, I am reminded of the pain,
When I heard the news, the tears came just like rain.

The weekend was nothing unordinary, just a little retreat with with Cru,
The sun was out. The sky was crystal blue.

Suddenly, Saturday changed by nightfall,
My life turned upside-down with a simple phone call.

I fell to the ground, cried out in disbelieft.
I had never been consumed by so much grief.

I wanted to be mad at God for what He did to me,
But then I was reminded of all He did to set me free.

The pain had been dulled with the passing of time,
I try to not be selfish and claim what is not mine.

This life is too short to fill it with sadness and confusion,
I must let go of a life of selfishness and delusion.

Thank You, God for letting my life be touched by an angel,
Through Your Love, I take my life and start to untangle.

Those two beautiful lives will continue to have a special place in my heart,
Even though the distance keeps us apart.

God bless. Love you all. <3 Kacey

SPRiNG BReaK ADVeNTuReS!

While I didn't take a big trip for Spring Break this year, the week off from school was beyond awesome! A few things I did:

On Saturday, my mom and I went shopping. It has become a regular thing for us to shop for fabric whenever I come home to visit. I bought a few yards of fabric for different sewing projects. Most of the fabric is for birthday presents, so once those birthdays come and go, I will post pictures of the finished worked. Garen's brithday was on Monday, and my dad asked me to sew him something. Garen got a shot-gun shell reloader (picture on the right) for Christmas and my dad wanted me to sew Garen a cover for it. I was little unsure about it, because I had never sewed anything without a pattern. :/ BUT it turned out great!!! I cut out two pieces (24 X 24) of a thick fabric and a circle for the top. Honestly, I just started sewing pieces together, hoping that it would work. I ended up cutting off about four inches that wasn't necessary. I think Garen liked it! :)

His sewing project was completed on Sunday. On top of that, I got to hang out with my amazing friend, Brittany! She invited me over and I ended up being able to shoot a 9mm gun with her and her family. It was a little scary to even be holding something that powerful and LOUD. I actually did pretty well for the first time. I think Brittany and I are going to make that our new hang out activity.

On Monday, I visited Suzanne. I miss her soo much! She was at CofC my freshman year and transferred to UNC this year. It is always enjoyable hanging out with her and we always cook up something delicious! She made us chicken parmesan and I baked us some apple crisp. I made an oops at the grocery store and got Ritz Crackers instead of Nilla waffers, but it still tasted delicious with the crackers.

On Tuesday




(Garen's birthday), I made him a birthday cake. I had a new recipe that called for mayo??? A little strange, but it turned out quite nicely. The best part...decorating the cake!!! I love love love cake decorating. The cake is slightly childish, but all the cookie cutters I have are either girlie or Christmas themed.

I found out that if you ice the cake once (thin layer), then put it in the fridge for awhile, the second layer will be smooth and less crumbs. There is some cake poking out of the side, but I just didn't put enough icing there. O well, better luck next time!

On Wednesday, I headed back to Charleston. I had to be back early to do RA stuff. The rest of the break was spent getting head on some school work, sewing, exercising, sleeping, and reading. I finally got around to watching The Time Traveler's Wife. I definitely like the book better, but the movie was enjoyable.

I am finished with my dress! It is my FIRST outfit that I have made. I am really proud on how it turned out. It was definitely a learning opportunity, and there were plenty of times I have to just walk away from it because I was struggle with some aspect of sewing it.

"Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me" (Psalm 51:10).

The ABC's of Me

So I just finished sewing a present for the little brother (I will post pictures up later!) and I came across this and decided to fill out information about me! Enjoy :)

The ABC's of Me...

A- Age: 20.
B- Bed size: At school: Twin. At home: Full
C- Chore you hate: Some yard work. Like raking up gum-balls (the stupid seeds things)
D- Dog's name: Daisy. She is a Bassett hound and is soo sweet! I wish I could bring her to college with me.
E- Essential food/item: Fruit. Vegetables. Bread. Basically all the food groups.
F- Favorite color: RED. GREEN. BLACK.
G- Gold or silver: Probably silver
H- Height: 5’2-ish
I- I am: a C. I am a C-H. I am a C-H-R-I-S-T-I-A-N. (We just sang this song at church today, so I just had to throw it in there!). I am striving to become a middle-school teacher. I am thankful for all the many blessings and challenges in my life.
J- Job: I am a Resident Assistant (RA) in my residence hall, College Lodge. I love it! It has challenged me in so many ways, and I am thankful for the opportunity.
K- Kids: No kids! I would like to have some eventually, but that will be on the list AFTER I get married.
L- Living arrangements: School year: College Lodge Residence Hall. Summer: Back home with the family.
M-Mom's name: Cindy
N- Nickname: K-Griff, Ms. G, Kwacey the Quilter
O- Overnight hospital stay: Nope
P- Pet peeve: When it is obvious I am working on something, but someone comes up and continues to chat up a storm with me. (I am patient about it though!). When I let people borrow books/movies and they don’t give them back.
Q- Quote from a movie: "Has it ever occurred to you that maybe you're not too big? Maybe this place is just too small?" (Big Fish). “You want the moon? Just say the word, and I’ll throw a lasso around it and pull it down” (It’s a Wonderful Life). “Love is a many splendored thing. Love lifts us up where we belong. All you need is love!” (Moulin Rouge).
R- Right or left handed: Right
S- Siblings: Two brothers. One older. One younger. Love them both.
T- Time you wake up: It varies each day. The earliest I have to get up is 5:45 on Tuesday mornings. I don’t like sleeping past 9:30.
U- Unique thing about your car: There is a small scratch on the back of my car where I back into a mailbox. The clock doesn’t work and hasn’t worked very well since I got my car. The automatic door lock doesn’t work in the winter.
V- Vegetable you hate: Sprouts. Eggplant.
W- Ways you run late: Generally I'm not usually late. If I am late, its due to dancing for too long while getting ready or spending too much time on Facebook.
X- X-rays you've had: Numerous. They have all been on my feet.
Y- Yummy food you make: Oatmeal Cookies. Shrimp Alfredo. Chocolate cake with buttercream icing.
Z- Zoo favorite: Elephants. Giraffes. Farm animals (They are at the Columbia Zoo).